Lost, Confused, Irritated, Annoyed, Agitated, Frustrated, Depressed, Aggravated etc etc
Don’t know what I m seeking
But m on a quest
Don’t know where it will end
But am not looking for a short cut
Don’t know what to expect
But am hoping for the best
Don’t know where it would take me
But am waiting for the journey to end soon
Have lost too much in this journey.. this so called quest…
I seem to have lost myself somewhere in this journey of so called self discovery..
I seem to have changed.. things have changed people have changed.. maybe reluctantly I have changed too.. but a price has been paid or is being paid for this reluctance..
I feel marooned on a deserted island with no one to talk to, no one to trust..
Just left alone behind trying to tag along but m failing miserably in doing so..
No one feels so right now but I in my heart know that this is all an illusion..
An illusion to keep people around me happy though they might be hurting me bad..
I have reached a crossroads where I in any direction I go I will end up hurting myself or hurting others..
If I change myself I fall in my own eyes
If I don’t then I end up hurting myself ..
I try to choose the option where I hurt others least but this pain that I m feeling is now killing me..
It is making me want to choose the other option but in doing so also I hurt myself by changing myself..
This is not right my heart tells me but what is right no one tells me that..
Its like a doc saying u have this disease which has no cure.. it wont kill u but u gotta live with the pain..
Don’t know what to do..
Trying to figure out but am failing in doing so too…
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Hi !!
its too deep(for me .. lolzzz) but totally appreciate and somewhat comprehend the passage(trust me amrita, this can come in CAT-08 !!!)
and guess wat !! - only u will be getting all questions correct and rest everyone will falter big time. hehehe
here are a few lines(ofcourse they are copied .. lol).
its a small msg for u. here they go -
(It starts with)
One thing / I don’t know why
It doesn’t even matter how hard you try
Keep that in mind / I designed this rhyme
To explain in due time
All I know
time is a valuable thing
Watch it fly by as the pendulum swings
Watch it count down to the end of the day
The clock ticks life away
It’s so unreal
Didn’t look out below
Watch the time go right out the window
Trying to hold on / but didn’t even know
Wasted it all just to
Watch you go
I kept everything inside and even though I tried / it all fell apart
What it meant to me / will eventually / be a memory / of a time when I tried so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesn't even matter
I had to fall
To lose it all
But in the end
It doesn't even matter
One thing / I don’t know why
It doesn’t even matter how hard you try
Keep that in mind / I designed this rhyme
To remind myself how
I tried so hard
In spite of the way you were mocking me
Acting like I was part of your property
Remembering all the times you fought with me
I’m surprised it got so (far)
Things aren’t the way they were before
You wouldn’t even recognize me anymore
Not that you knew me back then
But it all comes back to me
In the end
You kept everything inside and even though I tried / it all fell apart
What it meant to me / will eventually / be a memory / of a time when I tried so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesn’t even matter
I had to fall
To lose it all
But in the end
It doesn’t even matter
I've put my trust in you
Pushed as far as I can go
For all this
There’s only one thing you should know
I've put my trust in you
Pushed as far as I can go
For all this
There’s only one thing you should know
I tried so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesn’t even matter
I had to fall
To lose it all
But in the end
It doesn’t even matter
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