Hmmmm...

I pick up my pen
And stare at the paper
No words come to me to express what I fee
Strange, I find it
Words- that have been my friend forever are no longer there
Words- that u have always played with for my advantage are eluding me now
It seems that like everything else words have also deserted me
I don’t know how to pen down what i want to say
How to express the dull ache that seems to be a part of me
I feel as if I live in a bubble which no one can penetrate
Am there amidst everyone but yet am not actually there
I want everyone to leave me alone
But when that happens I feel a void in y heart
An emptiness that cannot be filled
But when everyone is around me
I feel suffocated
So much that it feels as if someone has a put a pillow over my face and is trying to strangle me
Yet again here I am writing my thoughts down
But even that I feel has stopped helping
Just keeping sane has become a full day job for me
Just trying to navigate myself through the darkness that engulfs me takes all my time
I just HOPE-
The only thing that I have left- HOPE-
Hope that there is some light at the end of the dark tunnel I am in
Just HOPE is all I have right now….

A VOICE IN MY HEAD.......

“WHO ARE YOU?”, I hear a voice say
I look around but there is no one
I hear a mocking laugh and the voice again rings out
“WHO ARE YOU?”
“WHAT ARE YOU DOING?”
“WHY ARE YOU DOING SO?”
Perplexed I jump up and look around
I see no one
There is again a short sarcastic laugh
The voice repeats its questions
I m scared now but there is no one around
I shout,” WHO ARE YOU??? SHOW YOURSELF”
I hear a soft amused laugh
The voice says, “I am you. You wont find me anywhere else. I am a part of you….”
I put it as a lack of sleep and excess of novels
Just try to run away—busy myself in other things
As I succeed the voice becomes just a hum in the background..
A sound which can be neglected but is still present
Days past by the humming though at low volume still continues
I dread the day when I will again face the voice
But the voice still continues to haunt me
Subconsciously I start looking for answers
But none are to be found
I am getting desperate now but the answers are nowhere to be found..
I am trying to figure out my life as the humming still continues……..