Another exam that i messed up...
Another failure added to my profile...
Another thing that i can say i screwed up..
Another hope lost...
Another dream shattered...
Another day in my life...
Another memory which wont be forgotten but wont be cherished...

hmmm...
i seem to be an expert in messing up everything i do...
but look at the positive side...
at least i am BEST at one thing... just continually screwing up my life...

how does it feel to know that u have messed up ur life??

well it isnt actually a new feeling for me.. but i ll still try to describe it...
it is kinda shock nd takes hell lot of time to seep in..
first u keep denying it to urself..u keep repeating that its going to be fine.. but soon the barrier breaks.. and then comes a state of panic nd anger...u feel like crying..u feel like shouting..u just want to do something with the universe so it can feel as lousy as u do.. then slowly nd painfully this anger also subsides... u just feel as if u r walking dead..aloof..isolated...totally unaware of ur surroundings...but again even this stage doesnt last long..life has to move on.. even u start feeling like human again... u again start hoping... u again start imagining...u again start aspiring...u try to put ur failure in the back of ur mind coz u knw u ll never be able to erase it comepletely..but as soon as u start dreaming u never realize it that time but u have entered this vicious circle again..and this story gets repeated again and again and again...

well for me this circle itself is LIFE...or rather LIFE AS I KNOW IT......